I finally found my purpose.

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When I align the energy of my heart and my throat chakras, I am empowered to speak about my grief and awakening journey and inspire suicide survivors to break their silence.

Through grief, I transformed. By tuning my awareness inward, I connected with spirit and was guided to a vibration of transcendent self-love. This sensation was the same as when I felt my peak experience with my departed loved one. For decades I believed that I could not feel such ecstasy without him, but I discovered that it is possible to feel unconditional love for myself, with or without him.

Every day we forget. We need to be reminded that on this spiritual journey it is our birthright to feel bliss.

That the thoughts and beliefs we hold create the reality that we experience and that we have the power to shift this reality.

I am grateful to be able to enter this space of self-love more and more of the time. When I do, I see this love reflected back to me in the conversations I have, the people I meet, and on my social media. This brings me great joy.

  On my fortieth birthday, I gifted myself the solace of a float in a sensory deprivation tank. That experience was the catalyst for my re-awakening. It was a pressure cooker for meditation. 

  In the stillness and silence of the float tank, my only option was to turn my awareness inward. My eyes burned as my tears mixed with the salty water. Inside myself, I found my heart overflowing with grief.

  In that moment, I knew I had to re-connect with my spirituality in order to heal from the trauma of losing a dear friend to suicide almost two decades earlier. He had sparked my soul and after his death it became too painful for me to continue on my spiritual path.